fork in the road

first, my very late hitman movie review: the hitman video game franchise is one of my favorites because it's not just your usual button-mashing, shoot-everything-in-sight first-person adventure. it's a game of tactics and stealth, and completion of the mission requires precision and consideration of every option before making a decision for a slight miscalculation means a bad situation. waha. anyways... (read full review)

okay, on to the main event...

it's been said nth times but mostly about recent breakups: nothing lasts forever. however this one is about my job. you see, for the past few weeks, the number of files we've done were diminishing. partly, we're being blamed for it because the quality of our work has decreased but that is because there's not enough transcriptionists and there's so much work to be done that we do them as fast as we come just to beat the deadline. the big chunk of the problem was caused by the writers' strike. without writers writing, there's no tv shows or movies for us to transcribe. and so what began as a rumor turned out to be true, there would be some downsizing needed. all our heads are on the chopping block. it's either we put our lives on the company's hands and let them transfer us to another account or we pack our stuff and hit the road. i completely understand them helping us out with the account transfer but even that is a big question mark. the only openings within the company are voice accounts, which i have a problem with. i had specifically applied for a non-voice position because i was not born to speak and i just dont think i'd do any good if i get transferred to do calls. they tell us that the transfer is advantageous, voice accounts have a higher salary. but how can you look forward to something you don't want to do and even if you did, you're not sure you're gonna get? they will re-train us but if you fail, you earn a warning. get enough warnings and you're fired. there is still a chance that they might keep some of us in our account but even that poses problems because it would only mean that the ones left behind would have to do double the workload.

i know they're doing this for the betterment of all but we just can't help being negative. (-1) this was not our fault and yet we're the ones to suffer most. (-2) we feel like sitting ducks waiting to be shot and (-3) we dont want to cut our friendships short. we pointed out a lot of things during meetings and suggested other options but we were talking to deaf ears. they used their boss powers. it's a take it or leave it situation. damn it. so now, i dont know what to do. shit, i don't know how to finish this post, even. dilemmas, dilemmas. hmmmm...

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p.s. i've been to neverland and had manic mondays. i've met a martian and caught a butterfly. i've passed through penny lane and came running home. now, which one should i do next: learn how to kill a mockingbird or how to play the guitar? (sorry if it doesn't make sense.)